Sharing in the ups and downs of life and parenting. Join the roller coaster ride.

Letting them go

So my son started head start last week. He is 4, and has been home with mommy pretty much since day 1 of his life, well before that in my womb of course, but I stayed home most of his life up until now.

As you can imagine, him being my first born, my baby; even though he insists I call him a “big boy” I slip sometimes and call him my baby, letting him go to school alone was a toughie on me.

He rode the bus all by him self, like a big boy ๐Ÿ™‚ He climbed right up the steps and into his seat and didn’t look back. Can you believe that y’all, he didn’t even look back, he didn’t even pretend like it was rough on him. So then mommy felt like a big baby. To make it worse, his sister was right behind him. I had to restrain her or she was gonna leave me for school too. What is this craziness? I grabbed her up and turned around and began walking back to the house. Holding on to her for dear life telling her she still had at least another year before she started school, and she was spending it with mommy. I told her!

After turning around to go home I called my mom, I had been so great, so strong. My son had no idea I was so scared inside for him to be growing up and go out in the world with out me at the ripe old age of 4. So on the phone with my mom I began to tear up, not sob, snot running down the face, but I did cry.

I was, and am, happy to have the one on one time with my little girl because she hasn’t had that time like big brother did, and I am feeling much better about it now. But in those first few minutes after he climbed on that bus and rode off I was scared, and sad that my little baby had grown up and somehow I think I must have missed some of it. I don’t know where 4 years went. I have tons of memories, but it just went by too darn fast.

How have you all handled your little ones going back to school or starting school this year? Any ideas for a mom with a kid just starting, because my son does have some reservations? Share the love, folks.

Love and prayers,
Heather ๐Ÿ™‚

Hello world!

Hello everyone, my name is Heather. I am a single mom of my 2 wonderful children.ย  My son is 4 and my daughter is nearly 3 ๐Ÿ™‚ I live in a suburban area of Charleston, WV. The 3 of us live alone in our lovely apartment, its nothing much but anything is lovely when filled with love :).

I’ve mulled over beginning a blog for over a year now, a year, can you believe that? Talk about procrastination guys haha, I am the queen of procrastination. So, anyway, my kid’s father and I split upย  just over a year ago, our divorce has only been since April, 2012. We had been married 7 years. Once again, can you believe that? Whew, long time, but I try not to be bitter because, it was a mixture of good and bad.

You know what I mean, like without him I wouldn’t have my two kids, or have learned things I learned. I mean, it totally sucks that I lost that time with the wrong person, but I try to find the silver lining.ย  [yeah I’m one ofย those people lol, I try to be optimistic, but stay with me, you’ll see the dark and twisty complainer in me too, promise]

Oh, no worries that was just one of my random rants where my head lost where I was going with a topic. It happens ๐Ÿ™‚ So, my point was, since I currently have to physically raise my children alone, and be alone most of the time; I’d like you to join me on this adventure of starting over in life. So come with me on my roller coaster. We can laugh and cry together. Maybe I can give you some tips and maybe you can give me some too ๐Ÿ™‚

This should be lots of fun, thanks guys.
Heather ๐Ÿ™‚